I do write, but I write for myself. I write to remember and I write to reflect. I keep a daily gratitude journal. I always think my writing is not worth sharing with anyone else. I even kept my One Little Word this year to myself, but when I reflect on my choice of word, I know what I have to do.
Here is what I wrote on January 4th and never posted.
As I have been listening to my friend, Erika, talk about her One Little Word, I have been considering this idea for myself. Although I have not been publicly writing about OLWs, I think always have many that I am striving for.
I started the last school year with the word present, even sharing with the staff that my goal was to be present. “Be here now,” said a sign in my office. That’s what I would do. Unfortunately, last year went as far from expected as I thought possible and I had no choice but to be present 24/7 for awhile. It had to be done. I added the word brave along the way and appreciated that another friend, Jessica, reminded me often that I could be brave.
I think situations we face daily force us to embrace many “One Little Words” throughout a year, so that is why choosing one requires so much thought. What one word can embrace everything you want to become in a year? How can you predict what you will need to be? As I continued to think about this (“paralysis by analysis” my husband will say), I woke up this morning after a long night with my teenager, who got her wisdom teeth out earlier in the day, and had the word “push” in my head. Such an odd choice maybe, but I like it. I need to push myself more. Push myself through difficult times, push myself to celebrate more, push myself to embrace, pause, become- all the other words my friends are choosing. I need to push myself to appreciate what I have, who I am, who I am surrounded by, and what I am capable of. I need to push myself to stop dwelling on things that happen, take the lesson from each, and be my best self. That’s what I will try to do. It may seem like an odd choice, but it leaves it open enough for me because you never know what a year will bring.
P.S.- Maybe I’ll even push myself to join the March challenge.
It’s March already and I will live my One Little Word. Today I will push myself to not only write daily, but share my writing.